ah ,

so yes i have realized what this babies purpose kinda is.

possibly to show me that being a parent isn't easy.

its not.

even when she's not crying and im taking a nap

i feel like im in the lightest sleep ever,

because i know im responsible for caring for the baby.

right now she has not been to bad.

cranky a bit .

hopefully this means tonight i can get some sleep.

but yes babies for me are FAR FAR FAR away.

i'd rather just hold other peoples babies,

and be an aunt eventually.

and than in like 10 years have some children.