dance

so i mentioned before the dance was last night .

these are two pictures one of my friends sent me.

im still waiting for more.

kelsey and i
edna + i slow dancing LOL

bineu

so yesterday mom and i decided to spend some time together during my spare and lunch hour.

we headed over to co-oop to get some gas , than to wal-mart .. i forget why .

than to petland to get some dog food.

we decided to look @ the dogs really quick.

and we both fell head over heels in love with a black lab/chesapeake bay retriever.

he is the cutest little guy ever.

only nine months old,

and has amazing green eyes.

his name is bineu and he is just super cute overall ..

last night i went to the school dance.

i changed my costume due to no time to get the otherone ready

and was a cow girl.

i wore a plaid shirt, shorts, boots, and a cowboy hat .

when i get pictures from my friends i will post some.

until than ..

byee .

the ballet.

i forgot to mention this.

thursday evening my dance class went to the ballet.

it was amazing.

we saw carmina burana.

it was kinda more of a contemporary peice

but still extremely amazing ..

these are some pictures we took

friday night + more

so friday night @ youth we had a picture scavenger hunt.

we had to drive around transcona and take pictures of certain things.

it was a really fun night.

so here are some of my pictures.

this one was two team members being pushed in a blue shopping cart.

a team member with a dog toy in their mouth ,
no one would do it so i took one for the team !

jumping infront of the family washroom

@ kildonan place.

hugging a red haired clown .

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their was alot more but it takes so long to upload them

so im not gonna.

but ..

this is to my auntie

i was doing the dishes tonight after supper ,

standing around thinking how much funner doing the dishes would be

if you were there .

i miss you lots !

and cannot wait for summer 09'

because i've decided im not going to L.A w/ dance

im going to head over the mountains to smithers !

ahh , i love you auntie darlene!

halloween

i so cannot wait for the dance next wednesday/

setting up for it and all shall be fun.

it kinda sucks tho ,

i havent been able to make it to any meetings for that commitee tho ,

because of tcu .. which i cant miss due to the fact its a credited course.

but anyways . im going with the foreigns ! woo ,

maria , edna + i are going retro style .

shall be fun .

some big fall off the shoulder sweaters,

bright leggings ,

flats ,

and legwarmers ..

than we will backcomb are hair a bit , and all that jazzz.

it will be alot of fun ,

than next friday night we will be going trick or treating .. =)

yeaaaahhh candddyyy , mmmmm !

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wow , kso i have kinda realized in the past couple days

their might just be this guy i really like .

i mean i have known him for years .

and i have been hanging out with him so much lately ,

and friday it just kinda hit me ,

that i do like him .

hes the kinda guy i have been looking for

he's awesome

a christian ,

he wants to go into missions just like me ..

he is funny ,

outgoing .

just everything .

maybe their are guys out there ,

that are actually worth my time .

well yeah i really like this guy , :)

man alive.

geez.

i have a migrane again !

this just beyond silly now .

i do not understand why i keep getting them.

:)

today was pretty great .

hung out with best people in the world ..

maria , edna , linda , lukas and kelsey.

it was so fun.

cant wait till friday to go to pure + than polo on saturday !

than sunday high school musical 3 ,

wooo ! =)

now in a couple minutes im heading to kyles house ,

to hang out with him , josh and dylan.

shall be fun hopefully !

i havent seen them all in SO long.

oh i got my hair cut yesterday

its disgusting !

i hate it ..

she made it really short when i told her all i wanted was layers , and a bit cut off.

it was like down to my stomach almost ,

and now its by my shoulders ..

ERRGG!

i hope it grows fast again.

cause i liked it better long .

and my bangs are pretty weird too .

maybe its just that its different and im so not used to it ,

hopefully it will grow on me .. and soon i will like it .

but im out , =)

tonight.

so tonight is gonna be pretty great !

youth than im staying at my brothers for the night .

it makes me so excited .

its the first time im gonna stay at his house ,

and i just think its super cool

other than these two things ,

their is nothing super spectacular to say about today ..

so this is about it .

TGIF !

mm so i added this post accidently but have nothing to say

mmmm ..

so today .

well what about today can i write .

school seemed super long and dragged out .

i have realized that in clothing we have made not one thing of clothes since the year has started .

we knitted , and have done theory , and sat around .

its lame . really lame !

than my tcu meeting , ughh my goodness shoot me already !

like the girl already made us sit for one whole day and listen to her talk

and today we had to sit and waste our lunch hour hearing the same things

when i had so many other things i needed to get done.

oh than english rolls around , stank hands back or assignments finally !

its about freaking time , than mentions

oh guys your only looking at your marks on stuff and handing it all back in ...

im sorry does this make any sense .

i thought it went something like ..

student hands in assignment to teacher,

teachers marks it in a couple days .

after a couple days student gets marked assignment back and puts in binder to use to study .

nope apparently with stank it dont work that way.

ughhh !

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mm , than after school went to the hockey game.

pre good time !

rather than the fact that some certain people i do not exactly enjoy to much were there.

and decided to attempt to start stuff ,

saying stuff that was not true .

it drove me nuts !

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yeah and than went tanning ,

it felt like it was my only 16 minutes of my day where i just layed back and stopped.

it was nice , i enjoyed it.

than had dance

and now im sitting here thinking

wow , sometimes i wonder how i manage all this in my brain .

ok so this has to do with two previous posts i have written .

the last one and the one titled " seven , i think "

ok so the person i mentioned in the last post had some thoughts on the first picture in "seven , i think"

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i come home from dance,

come on msn.

and steven starts talking to me , ( the guy sitting behind me in the picture )

he is like one of my best friends !

he came over to chill saturday night , and we invited him in on the picture .

and so im gonna just call him stupid , decides to add steven up on facebook .

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this just miffs me off ..

like whats the point of that ?

than to right away stupid sends steven a message and says ..
" how do you know aryssa "

and he was like oh i have known her for like years , her mom used to babysit me , and now were just really good friends and all , thats about it .

and stupid replys " oh so your not dating her ? "

steven says no

an he says good .. ??

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hmmm .. so what does this mean ?

am i not aloud to move on from him ..

cause i think i should be aloud to .

i mean stupid moved on from me .

in a matter of like a couple days ,

when he supposively loved me ?

mhmm right .. makes sense to me

he for sure loved me .. NOT

if he did it would have been a forever type thing ,

because love isnt something that just fades away .

it last forever .

through thick and thin.

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i need to just stick with my thoughts on this ,

not give into relationships .

im thinking staying single till im 16 is a good idea.

it gives me a year to possibly get to know someone first ..

it gives me another year to continye maturing .

getting my thoughts together on what it means to be inlove

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i have realized this year

relationships and loves isnt something that is light topic.

it takes all of you , and your emotions.

it takes dedication, commitment .

i dont want anything less than this perfect type of god love describes .

so pretty much imma wait for the right guy to come around .

maybe if i stop looking so hard , he will just find me !

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ohh aryssa you think to much !

i wonder ,

some times i wonder why im such an idiot about this topic.
i completely stopped talking to you for some time now.
i just gave up .
our relationship didnt work , and after that our friendship didnt seem to work either .
so i gave up.
stopped trying to make everything work.
because their was no hope.
i convinced myself , i am so over him !
i dont want anything to do with him .
im better off without him .
the stressed he caused in my life.
im done with the bad decisions that were influenced by him , and the role he had in my life.
so why today ,
when he came up to me and asked.
hey , and asked if im mad , and if were still friends
i said hey, no im not mad, and of course were still friends.
it seemed like it popped right out of my mouth without even thinking.
i dunno why this bugs me it does.
and their is more .
he is in a relationship with someone now ,
which bugged me at first but i think im finally coming to terms with it .
today at lunch he texted me and said " i made a mistake aryssa "
and i said and that was ?
and he said breaking up with you .
i dunnno .
it makes me wonder
if he is being all like that with me while he has a girlfriend,
how many times did he do that while i was like gone for almost a month with some other girl .
you know ?
i know some of you dont like him .
and i wanna make it clear to you all that this post is not me sitting here confessing im head over heels for him or anything .
just the fact that still to this day my mind wanders when it comes to any topic involving him.
i cant take back anything that happened,
it happened,
but if i could just erase it all .
completely i would.
because maybe something good could have come from me + him ., you know ?
and i will tell anyone . anyone ,
peer pressure , or whatever its called when its from your boyfriend ..
dont fall for it .
stay true to your morals ,
stay true to who you are ..
never let anyone tell you that you are less of a person than you are .
expect them to respect you , and if they dont . its not worth it ..
you cannot change who they are ,
as much as you might want to you cant.
and last but not least never short change yourself , thats the best advice my auntie ever gave me ,
sorry for kinda just saying anything about this topic i needed to get it off my head

I LOVE MY AUNTIE .

ok so im starting with the most important topic of the day.

my mom calls me before she leaves for vegas and says i have a letter from my cousin.

so i open it , and whats inside ??

my lovely aunt who i love to death .

got me a starbucks card ! wooo .

thanks auntie darlene .

i totally would have called and thanked you but im not sure when i will be at my house,

cause nana doesnt have unlimited long distance.

btw auntie darlene ..

i miss youu ..

like nutso crazy.

im totally up for some cookie dough and a chick flick and the bacon of course ..

NO TURKEY BACON !

lol the real junk ,

hopefully i will get to come and see you guys again this summer.

i might just cry if i dont get to ,

but at least i will see you for joshs wedding!

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what else .

oh mom + dad are off to vegas.

they just texted me saying they were on the plane from denver to vegas

and yeah.

thats pretty exciting

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hmm , im starting tanning again tomorrow,

so now i dont have to be all pasty and white.

which is EXCITING stuff

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well as for now ,

im gonna get ready for dance.

probably will write alot in the next bit

since i will be bored probably.

seven , i think !

kso after mom and dad's party on saturday, we planned to have some people over for a bonfire, well this didnt really work out to well because it started raining. and also the only person who isnt part of the fam that ended up coming over was steven. but we ended up still having a good time. we watched what happens in vegas. it was SO funny.

so i guess all their is to say about this picture is ..
that i hope this is our sister 'group'
complete!

because i honestly love all three of you !

and you all mean so much to me !

mmmm. i love family !

thanksgiving

so first off thanks to everyone for last night + helping us out.

it was so incredibly appreciated.

the party for mom and dad ended up being a sucess ,

and i am so glad it was,
after the work i put into planning everything.

i admit yes, we had a very stressful day with drama between us kids,

but we worked it out in the end,

and had a great time last night.

i hope mom and dad enjoyed their time as much as we did.

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today was a pretty great day too,

minus that i am exhausted.

went to church , came home had some lunch .

took a two hour nap ! =)
and than had thanksgiving dinner

w/ mom, dad, daniel. cassie, donovan, auntie sharon, oma + opa !
it was really good.

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now im already thinking i just might head off to bed.

but i also just wanna say how thankful i am for so many things god provides for me.

my family. my education, the nice house we have, my friends .. and so on

also.. just in general im so thankful for god ,

that he is my constant support.

he provides for me ,

and loves me unconditionally,

and its amazing !

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ok - so now im out.. this head ache i still have is taking a toll on me ..
and i need sleep !

night !

hockey game yesterday .

k i know i just wrote something but i thought of something i shall write.

yesterday i went to the hockey game with some of the international students.
and boy oh boy did i have a great time !
maria and i were going out of the arena cause we were cold ,
and im a little stupid sometimes and tripped on the stairs . HAHA
it was funny, funny, funny.
than we were like talking bout how greg is maria's boyfriend .. :)
just cause the guy sitting infront of us liked maria + she doesnt like him.
ugh im gonna miss all of them when they leave .
oh ps - i met my future boyfriend LOL he is from germany :):)

four .

so i had my training for the credit union today.

and my brain hurts.

LOL
its good for me tho.

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anyways my brother is home tonight !
WOO !

im pre excited to see him ,

i miss him so much.

and his help this weekend will be so appreciated
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i think thats all for now,

maybe more later tonight.

numero trois

ssoo i have kinda realized how much it bugs me that i have no idea what my english mark is !

are teachers has not handed back one assignment to us , so how the heck am i supposed to know what to expect on reports next week ?

ughh its so frustrating. i as of this point hate english class ,

alot. but whatever.

its a mandatory class , and i have to take .

i will just do my best , and hope for the best , cause thats pretty much all i can do .

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after school im going to our schools hockey game with brittany, and the exchange students,

kinda looking forward to it.

it should be fun , i have to explain hockey to maria .. and the funny thing is i dont even understand it very well LOL.

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well im totally stocked for tomorrow , my big brother is coming home from college for the weekend.

i miss him like you wouldnt believe,

it feels like it has been forever since he left ,

and it has only been one month .

with him gone i have realized how much i relyed on him.

he was the one i kinda went to for advice all the time,

and he was the guy who always cheered me up .

so at least i get one weekend of that ,

than its back to counting down till he is home for a week in november.

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my head still really hurts, and i hope it gets better soon ,

considering this weekend is gonna be pretty intense.

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oh yes here goes my rant abbout this weekend.

no names will be involved,

but here is the story .

ok so family is supposed to be important , right ?

and on holidays normally families get together and have dinner.

well apparently my family is not to important to others in my family.

because their is no room for us to come to thanksgiving dinner ?

this makes me really mad,

so what maybe we all dont get along all the time.

but thats life,

no one gets along ALL the time.

but c'mon cant we all just be in the same room for lik e one evening,

be able to say were all so thankful for the family we have ..

apparently not ?

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oh wells me and my parents, and my brothers + sisters are gonna have a grand ol time together.

oh and clearly more food for us to eat , which is always good.

thanksgiving dinner is my favourite =)

but yeah we will have supper,

and than possibly if this rain goes away go over to the feild and play some football together or something.

it will be fun !

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speaking of thanksgiving ,

i am defintely very thankful for my family.

they are amazing.

my mommy , and daddy ,

my three brothers,

and my sisters =)

love you all to death.

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well since im at school ,

i should probably start working LOL

rant

ok so i have a new pet peeve.

the fact that people seem to think beauty is an outer thing.

im sorry, i personally thing your absolutely wrong.

you shouldnt need make up or certain clothes to make you beautiful,

you dont need to 'flant it' for guys to notice you.

you think your all that when guys tell you damn girl you fine, or your sexy ?

mhmm , well im sorry but if you ask me all that guy wants is one thing ,

and you know exactly what i mean.

like come on ,

dont you want someone to like you for who you are on the inside.

dont you want a guy to tell you how much WHO YOU ARE makes him smile ,

and that because your beautiful on the inside , your just an over all beautiful person ?

i think you all need to get over yourselves, seriously ..

and be you , who cares what everyone thinks ?

go to school without make up on ,

wear sweats and put your hair in a ponytail

frick wear your pajamas to school ,

and no matter what be happy with who you are .

im done ..

number one .

so this is my first blog post .

i realized my mom and auntie had one and it seemed pretty interesting so i decided to get one.

im not exactly sure what i will write on this thing , but im sure i will find something.
right now im not feeling to great , i have had a headache since yesterday morning.

oh , hey happy 25th anniversary mom + dad ! hope you guys have many many many more loving years together ! <3

well this is all for now ,

goodnight !