wow , sometimes i wonder how i manage all this in my brain .

ok so this has to do with two previous posts i have written .

the last one and the one titled " seven , i think "

ok so the person i mentioned in the last post had some thoughts on the first picture in "seven , i think"

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i come home from dance,

come on msn.

and steven starts talking to me , ( the guy sitting behind me in the picture )

he is like one of my best friends !

he came over to chill saturday night , and we invited him in on the picture .

and so im gonna just call him stupid , decides to add steven up on facebook .

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this just miffs me off ..

like whats the point of that ?

than to right away stupid sends steven a message and says ..
" how do you know aryssa "

and he was like oh i have known her for like years , her mom used to babysit me , and now were just really good friends and all , thats about it .

and stupid replys " oh so your not dating her ? "

steven says no

an he says good .. ??

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hmmm .. so what does this mean ?

am i not aloud to move on from him ..

cause i think i should be aloud to .

i mean stupid moved on from me .

in a matter of like a couple days ,

when he supposively loved me ?

mhmm right .. makes sense to me

he for sure loved me .. NOT

if he did it would have been a forever type thing ,

because love isnt something that just fades away .

it last forever .

through thick and thin.

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i need to just stick with my thoughts on this ,

not give into relationships .

im thinking staying single till im 16 is a good idea.

it gives me a year to possibly get to know someone first ..

it gives me another year to continye maturing .

getting my thoughts together on what it means to be inlove

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i have realized this year

relationships and loves isnt something that is light topic.

it takes all of you , and your emotions.

it takes dedication, commitment .

i dont want anything less than this perfect type of god love describes .

so pretty much imma wait for the right guy to come around .

maybe if i stop looking so hard , he will just find me !

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ohh aryssa you think to much !